The best thing I have going.

So obviously I have been completely slacking on my posts. Which should come as no surprise as I haven't written in my journal for a coon's age. Which some would say is a good sign because often times if you see me writing in that I am most likely bitching incessantly about someone or something. Which is why they are fun to read and can only be published if I kick the can or all names are changed!!

I have the luck of having a four year old. He is spunky and dramatic (no idea where that comes from). He is hilarious and kind. Last weekend (and by that I mean thursday-monday we are lucky enough to have really long weekends together) we went outside and hardly came back in. We went four-wheeling, we camped out, we shopped, we went to church, we went out to eat, we walked, we played, we loved.

 Sunday night he was in the bathtub and I was sitting on the toilet talking to him and I am not sure what brought it up but he said something about if he died. I said  "don't do that because then Mom wouldn't have anything to live for" he says "yeah but you'd have Jayke and beagle" I said "but I wouldn't have you and then I wouldn't be me"
After sobbing my way through my mom's blog today it makes me think how she is the most amazing woman I know. She did go into a dark cave when my brother passed away but she has found her way out. That takes courage and strength. Not a lot of people could fight their way out of that.

I got pregnant with Nolan about five months after Mike's accident. I didn't know what I was having and I didn't want to know. He has been the best thing that ever happened to me. I watch him go about his life and there isn't a single day that goes by that I don't think or say," I wish mike could be here to see you". or "God Mike would have gotten such a kick out of you." Maybe he can, maybe he does I sure hope so. But I know one thing; I can and I do and I love.

Not even kidding.